Night and Day

 

I should put some kind of warning on the opening page that says "This stie best viewed in the middle of the night with all the lights off."  It would make sense cuz that's when it's written, and it's on days like yesterday that I realize that by day, my site is very difficult to see.  But there's that balance, too.  Take this page, for instance.  I am writing this by day, and the color looks fine.  This is the same color I did yesterday's entry in, and when I went back last night to check on it, I thought my eyeballs were gonna burn out.     My own nights and days contrast pretty wildly, too, though furious activity marks them both.  By day I make phone calls and access the net in quick bursts for email, while working on graphics for my budding business and its new prospective clients.  I disable the call waiting cuz it's more professional for a business contact calling me back to get a busy signal instead of it seeming to ring and ring, as sometimes happens with call waiting enabled, even though it's supposed to (and usually does) bump me off the net.     All this is interspersed with the ongoing mommy role.  I still don't have daycare yet, so I am continually checking on my little ones, or they are playing up here in the office with me, or I am down defending the dog against them, or breaking up fights, or something.  I also have to stop to make meals and get the kids down for a nap (shyeah!) and clean up whatever got messed up, so days don't get too productive, really.  I do spend time with my kids, reading and playing and stuff, mostly early in the morning, around lunchtime, before supper, and between supper and bedtime.  In addition to all the play breaks during the day.     At night I am working for Dulac, getting worlds set up and coordinating product delivery and payments and stuff.  I used to actuallly make rwx but who has the time anymore?  Stuffing a world with the appropriate objects and textures, and trying to manage it all is a full-time job of itself.  Which is kinda sad cuz I actually liked making rwx.     At least, at night, the kids are asleep.  But the night is also the only time I can get hold of my beloveds (most of them, anyway).  So then I am juggling work and badly needed personal contact.     Weekends throw a wrench in the whole thing cuz then the hubbys is home and I am expected to do whatever he wants me to do, which is stay off the net and houseclean, or stay off the net and watch tv with him, or stay off the net and go mallwalking or grocery shopping (which is an all-day operation for him).  Not that I mind doing these things, when I know when we are gonna do them and have planned the time accordingly.  We waste so much time in the getting-ready-to-go-somewhere process (thanks to tv, mostly) that the whole day is blown in the name of some eggs and bread.     Burning the candle at both ends?  You bet your sweet patootie.  But if I do it right, before long I can hire people to take over some of this stuff and can slow down some.  Whew.